i am trying to calm my nerves, my face has been in a permanent frown for weeks. not a good thing.

firstly, i’m like 0.5mm away from calling off and walking away from a 12 year friendship. i am just too tired, fed up and disappointed. 

people get divorced, friends part ways; it’s just all part of the circle of life, forever is overrated righhhhhht?

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second of all, they really are working me to the bone and squeezing all the last drops of value from my last 2 weeks @ work. 

but i agreed to it so i will stick it through. though admittedly, my tolerance from other people’s errors and inefficiencies is alot lower.

suddenly i have no qualms with calling people @ 9pm and demanding to know why they didn’t deliver what they promised. my b*tch factor is high right now.

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thirdly, i’ve had no time to exercise or eat properly, this has impacted me the MOST.

i actually cancelled my own farewell dinner tonight b/c i really really want to go to the gym.

but don’t tell anyone that…

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fly to taipei tomorrow for 2 day weekend. hopefully some home-cooked meals and deep tissue massages will revitalize me to face next week!!!

昨天晚上睡不好 我室友半夜說她被鬼壓要跟我睡

TMD打呼好大聲

我早上五點就被嚇醒了

小女子的單人床很久很久沒有客人嘛 

反正我就溜到公司來繼續挑燈夜戰寫報告

一直催眠自己

這可是我在香港最後一個需要加滿滿的班的週末啊

以後再也不會在香港工作整個週末

別的地方我可不知道…

i woke up with lots of ideas today. 寧靜致遠. i went to a cafe and i wrote them all down and colored in my diagrams with pink and yellow highlighters. i sorta miss crayola crayons. i wonder if they sell these in HK. 

having built one zillion Powerpoints, sometimes you forget the most primitive form of handwriting is also the most effective. have lots of visions, now to got about executing? must built some ammunition first.

it’s raining like a mofo outside. i rather like it. i can take my mega big umbrella and walk around and for once, hong kong is not crowded! 

i had the most awkward conversation w my soon-to-be ex-boss, it was not pleasant but i stood my ground. after the phone call, my palms and face were completely riddled with sweat. thank god it wasn’t a video conference. 

i admire people who do what they think is right, and i have to try my best to emulate what i think is right. figuring it out it just ain’t that easy.

okay i hate the air-conditioning in my house, it really has caused me successive migraines every day

so… essentially i just try not to be home when my roommate is home 

or when she is home i just lock myself in my room to prevent headaches…

she says it’s too hot and i am freezing to death i’m wearing a fleece…

errrrr…. this is the outcome of air con that works TOO well?

i think it’s because my new pad is smaller

so i am someone who TOTALLY needs to eat breakfast and wake up really early

so then my roommate complains i’m making eggs or smoothie @ 6am and the house smells like food in the morning 

she never eats breakfast so smell of food makes her nauseous

so i end up cooking and eating by the kitchen sink next to the fan or grabbing cereal and eating it in the lounge downstairs

i am seeing the subtle issues of people who don’t have similar “routines”

i did not realize this b/c our old house was bigger and it didn’t conflict as much

and my mom used to train us all to awaken and eat breakfast @ the same time so i didn’t notice these “issues”

a day or two is no problem…but when i get headaches every other day… it starts to bother me.

first world problems…

I think I’m experiencing bipolar tendencies. I don’t even know WHY.

One minute I’m laughing w friends and having a great time. 

The next moment I am on shut-down mode.

A good friend of mine went through this a little while back– he didn’t feel like answering to ANYONE but himself.

I laughed @ him then and there, but strangely, it’s now my turn.

SHUTDOWN MODE. 

If it is not light-hearted or brainless banter, then I refuse to take part.

I stopped replying emails and never return phone calls. 

No idea what’s up but it’s definitely not a deterrent–physically I feel great!

我最愛的無老火鍋

想想這三天吃的東西

1. 海鮮快炒+ 芒果啤酒
2. 牛肉湯面 + 豆干
3. 擔仔麵 + 蝦捲
4. 麻辣火鍋
5. 餡餅
6. 餛沌麵

我的媽啊

而且我還是吃最少的

Athens 跟 Christine 吃完火鍋又想吃烤肉跟涼麵

我都快吐了

嚴重減肥中

不過心情很好

好像你有一題迷底解不開突然就通了

很愉悅的心情

我終於懂了

我知道怎麼做了!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!