I guess I’d be hard pressed to let go of my Oscar too…

For basketball, I’m usually a bandwagon fan

For Ang Lee, I’ve definitely been a fan since Day 1 and seen ALL his movies.

Bravo!

My approach to problems was never soft to begin with.

Perhaps this all stems from the ability to be push my siblings and cousins around, I always thought ‘might is right’ and I will FORCE people to do what I want.

I’ve learned to be wiser. To go the soft approach… it’s usually alot more effective.

Nobody, including me, wants to be commanded or dominated or emotionally blackmailed.

Had a convo with a close guy friend. He joked about us hooking up and I would get too emotionally attached.

I simply said, 1) That’s gross 2 ) Then we cannot be friends anymore in my book and 3) That’s still really gross.

The theory we were debating about is whether there is true platonic friendship between males/females at this age, and I vigorously defend that there absolutely is!

That being noted, I find I tend to meet dating prospects when I’m alone, not with a big group of friends. Which is quite the opposite for many, especially friends I try to set up that met through big group gatherings!

Craving some me-time these days, keep double-booking myself and part of me just wants to ditch everyone and go into hiding again; but alas I cannot because my friends b*tch at me and I can’t deal with that either. 

Maybe after next week hiding would be on the agenda again… 

有些時侯，你忽然會覺得很絕望，活著就是承擔屈辱和痛苦。

這個時候你要對自己說，沒關係，很多人都是這樣長大的。

風平浪靜的人生是中年以後的追求。

當你尚在年少，你受的苦，吃的虧，擔的責，扛的罪，忍的痛，到最後都會變成光，照亮你的路。

while this has merit, it’s funny how successful people only come up with this “wisdom” AFTER they made it

…today is one of those days i miss him immaculately…

but as my good friend the pseudo buddhist monk tells me

“this too shall pass”

i have imagery of this dark cloud passing over my head and slowly dissipating until no more-like a Disney cartoon~!

i don’t want drama. i want solid state.

yayyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy I got 73/100 on my appraisal exam- Round 1. 

This has pros and cons. PRO is this is much higher than I expected with 3 days of cramming. The suggested time frame is a month of “studying”. 

The CON is that now I think I can do my second exam with 3 days of cramming. Probably NOT a good idea.

Discipline. Discipline. Discipline. Discipline. Discipline. Discipline. Discipline. Discipline. Discipline. Discipline. Discipline. Discipline. Discipline. Discipline. Discipline. 

I like repeating words in my head lately. 

小不忍則亂大謀小不忍則亂大謀小不忍則亂大謀小不忍則亂大謀小不忍則亂大謀小不忍則亂大謀小不忍則亂大謀小不忍則亂大謀小不忍則亂大謀小不忍則亂大謀小不忍則亂大謀小不忍則亂大謀小不忍則亂大謀

講十遍心情就好一點

看我怎麼慢慢收拾妳這個討厭鬼

祝天下有情人終成眷屬

我愛~~~~~~

昨天開完會原本一肚子火

但是經過一天的奔波回到家

開始看我的最愛武俠小說後

又覺得ㄟ~~~~~~這是我的人生必經之路 

我沒有什麼智慧武器也沒有想要花很多力氣猜忌別人

該來的就讓它來吧…

我坦然面對它…提起它…放下它…不讓它影響到我要的人生

Ten years from today, I will look back and still know how it felt to go about the days with your insides clenched in a knot

But it will have passed, and I will have only gained invaluable experience to take with me for the rest of my life 

My dad joked with me last night… he thinks I needed to find a guy 3-5 years older to cope with my mental state; after these ‘episodes’…I just may need 5-10. Haha. SENIOR CITIZEN much?

new york trip was full of awesome. i realized heather and i travel really well together…well we also had many years of practice when i essentially spent freshman year sleeping on her and Lucy’s couch…

but point being, it worked out well; we could easily occupy ourselves walking around and doing nothing in particular, or trying good food and never running out of things to discuss. big thanks to her husband for letting her run free for a few days. 

then there is LPT,  i was a bit anxious at first as we ran all the way from 2nd/17th to 2nd/34th. i was extremely relieved to find her very much her normal self save a few gross bowel movement stories and dietary restrictions.

ABC Kitchen was uber-yummy, gotta love those mashed potatoes and veal meatballs. note to self: farm  to table and organic does NOT = light seasoning and healthy cuisine; my bad. well,@ least everyone enjoyed it!!! 

sometimes i realize i should be nicer to my sister instead of treating her like my personal concierge service in all things USA. i gave her a hug and said i’ll try to be less bossy and b*tchy, she might revolt you know… 

day 2 was another delicious breakfast @ blue ribbon. i’m pretty lucky with restaurants, another home-run! wayyyyyyyyyy too much buttery foods though…we tried to walk the…. 13 blocks to make up for it. didn’t help.

LPT has a really nice apartment with a harborview, it didn’t seem all that small but had a good layout, high efficiency ratio as they say! 

‘Nice Work If You Can Get It’ was a funnnnnnnnnn filled music with shiny costumes and great Broadway song n’ dance; Matthew Broderick did a good job as did Gwenyth Paltrow’s mom…Blythe Dannar!

wash that down with lychee sake @ yakitori totto; one of my faves! either i’m easily pleased or i just have alot of faves!!! 

i felt kinda spoiled the next day whereas last week 10 people had to command LPT’s attention and i literally had her all to myself for pretty much 2 days. i was apprehensive before i got to NYC but now i’m one zillionth % sure that all will be fine and dandy in due time. it is a strong, well-enforced fight where victory is clear as day. 

everything else, EVERYTHING else including heartache, heartburn, whatever it is… only pales in comparison.

and i sleep better with that. amen!