January 18, 2012
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turtle-shell mode
i am slowly retracting into MIA mode again… this happens every so often when i spend too much time running around / flying / travelling/ socializing
i am inherently a introverted animal; but due to explicit conditioning and circumstance, extrovert ability is an acquired skill, not a natural state.
therefore, i start to feel bouts of anxiety once i’m around too many people for an extended period of time and constantly socializing.
ie: a friend brought me to lunch with his coworkers, party of 6. i exchanged the usual pleasantries and spoke to 2 of them quite extensively. my friend asked me afterwards why i seemed so interested and animated; i confessed it was just an act of politeness and social interaction. my mind was probably 100,000 miles away contemplating other completely irrelevant issues. so now that i divulged this secret, my friends might know sometimes i’m not 100% THERE but i do hope it’s hard to detect.
2 days until Chinese New Year! i feel like January is one vacation after another. sweeeeeet.
