good times, spicy noodles, bubbletea and a brilliant idea.

i just had to mark down which day it happened!

watch out world!

this was a stealth photo taken by you. I was unaware and completely passed out. and that’s how I feel now: everything is a requiem, a dream. and only I will know it’s full extent. thank you.

many people ask me “are you doing what you love in life?” and “do you really like real estate?”…and i usually say “no, i don’t have a particular affinity, it’s just an industry i work in now”

but lately, i’ve surprised myself at how much intuition i have when i do make decisions about how to run a project from inception to completion in real estate; and how i’m actually not as terrible at this as i presumed i would be as a newbie.

maybe i never noticed because it was what i grew up with all along, so unconsciously i picked up certain abstracts without purposefully doing so.

hanging out in harlem made me want to build beautiful brownstones, my affinity for senior citizens entice me to want to do master planned retirement neighbourhood.

perhaps these are two ideas that i can make happen! 

harlem neighbourhood, new york

T minus 3 hours. i can’t waittttttttttttttttttttttt to have some 100% ME- time. it is SO critical for me right now to just shut down, not answer to anyone, let my mind breathe.

today someone @ work cried re: smth job related. i spent almost an hour comforting them. it seemed to work because i got a big hug @ the end.

once upon a time i was that someone who locked herself in the bathroom because dragon lady was making my life difficult too…

so far i’ve come? doesn’t feel like it yet.

it’s WEDNESDAY why can’t it be FRIDAY so i can leave this city already

black tie functions remind me of the zoo

bankers, politicians, lawyers etc etc = monkey zebras and giraffes

今天子宮抽痛到我想打人

好死不死我今天得趕報告

突然老天爺怕我不夠忙

又丟個很鳥的炸彈來

明天一早要開緊急會議

星期一要做一系列的拆炸動作

講得輕鬆可是

我同時感覺胃也因為緊張而開始抽痛

真是傻眼

恩

很好

孟子曰：天將降大任於斯人也

必先苦其心志

勞其筋骨

餓其體膚

空乏其身

行拂亂其所為

所以動心忍性

增益其所不能

TMD 我想要轉行

當輕輕鬆鬆六點下班

可以天天去約會的小人物

但是現在

想逃也逃不掉

我要去買胃藥 

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10 Assignments done, 4 late assignments = $200 Fine / average 79% …dammit

1 30-page Appraisal to go… if I get 110% on this maybe I can slack on the final…*wishful thinking*

1 Final Exam to go…

GOGOGOGOGOGOGOGO one day this pain will all make sense

1) i’m trying to downsize my social app usage. less Facebook, less wechat, less gtalk, less Line, less skype even less sms texting. 

i would like to make more effort to meet up with people and be able to look them in the eye and talk, i feel like the world needs more of that and less emailing

it’s supposed to be a tool not take over your life.

2) budgeting. a perpetual eternal issue with me. i was listening to my housewife friend introduce the concept of ‘sacrifice’. for example, need to buy new $100 iron, well then eat @ home for 2 weeks so that you are effectively giving up something to ‘save’ for the something else. this has never occurred to me.

i’ve always been focused on earning more $ so i don’t have to make these decisions.

i find earning money is easier than saving money.

but perhaps it’s time to start the latter. reduce those starbucks lattes and timmy ice capps, i think i’ll be pleasantly surprised.

3) i did a nice jog when it was 7 degrees, now it has returned to -3. time to get rid of some winter blubber.

the living by default article reminded me of many unorganized thoughts. alot of what i remember about Toronto stayed the same. certain people and acquaintances whether near or far, stayed relatively the same.

by measure of several rulers, i’ve changed.

i am more open to new people, places, things but yet less tolerant to those i deem as time-wasters or i am unhappy with.

yes, this really should include dating prospects.

so all in all, i need to act and make changes to my life or else i will end up feeling trapped and helpless which is often the biggest deal-breaker for me. 

as for mission in life?…to enjoy what life offers and be happy.

now, that’s not so hard is it now? 

i’m under alot of pressure for the month of March.

have 2 major deals to close @ work and one very painful 30 page appraisal report to hand in along with 2 assignments.  it’ll take me 4-6 hours per assignment and god knows how many days on the report.

NOT LOOKING FORWARD TO IT. 

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我們既然為了五十塊大吵一架

本來說好要出去旅行的

可是因為五十塊談不攏而作罷

!@!@$!@ 五十塊也可以吵架真是不爽至極…

i guess how both parties think of monetary affairs need to be more aligned.

and i’ll admit i’m used to getting my way over monetary decisions and this ain’t jivin’. 

i should probably stay put anyways given the workload but still, not impressed.