WE MET TARGET. TARGET WAS 231. WE HAVE 233. EXCEEDED BY TWO.

F*CK YAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA.

I FEEL LIKE HAVING CHAMPAGNE AND CRYING @ THE SAME TIME.

Keep people in your life that truly love you

motivate you

encourage you

inspire you

enhance you, & make you happy.

If you have people who do none of the above, let them go.

before I go to bed, I always wonder what you are doing. just a habit that’s been hard to rid, like quitting smoking. funny I think back to my previous “breakups” and I haven’t the faintest recollection of how I felt back then. do certain emotions fade from memory? so strange. I think about you but I don’t really want to see you. what does that mean? I do not understand either.

anyways, whatever you’re doing, hope you’re enjoying it.

I still think Totto Yakitori is the bestest; Toronto get your shit together!

surprisingly, i don’t find living with a FULL house of grandparents and parents and siblings and summer guests to be overwhelming and lacking privacy.

when my door is locked, nobody even tries to find me; when my door is open everyone will drop in. clearly defined boundaries.

there is always healthy food on the table no matter what time of day: freshly baked kale chips, fresh cut fruit, nuts, berries, seaweed…never ending supply of nibbles that don’t have much caloric content. i’ve reduced my dining-out occasions at least by 40%; or i’ll go out after i come home for dinner, my body thanks me. 

and most of all, the story-telling. my grandfather is lucid and nowhere near senile but does have the habit of telling his golden-age stories 102924741 times. every time he starts up my mom and dad roll their eyes, because they’ve heard for 29 years, the other for 56 years.

but i don’t mind as of yet… i sit down and listen and ask questions that i’ve probably already asked at least 10 times.

but that’s okay, i like stories of the ‘olden days’ and i especially enjoy the sparkle in his eyes when he recounts them yet again.

Grandma likes to hem my yoga pants where she “thinks” are too long, i went to the gym and my pants are like ankle-length with stretchy hem…it looks errrr…like tights. 

overall, much better than i expected, not as annoyed as i expected; all is well…for now.

online shopping is very dangerous.

i just bought an aluminum tree sculpture for my new office. 

so random. i figure it symbolizes ‘growth’ and ‘wisdom’.

now how to transport my sculpture back from new york city without being fined…

3 months ago, 231 was a daunting number. when we did the preliminary review in January, the approved total was…2. 2 out of 308. !@#!@$ me backwards.

now as we approach the end of April, the number stands at 220; just a dozen off target. i feel like i’ve already done everything my miniscule brain can come up with to get here.

i’ve coerced, i’ve appealed, i’ve persuaded, i’ve offered monetary incentives and soft incentives, i’ve tried to act calm as a cucumber when it’s slow, i’ve outwardedly demanded progress at meetings, i found ways to cut corners, i’ve had 3 hour phone conversations to work from scratch, i’ve spent weekends @ the office, i’ve monitored on vacation, i’ve pissed off people and had other players yell at me on the phone, i’ve called up random strangers to ask for help;every soft and hard approach that i can come up with–rolled up my sleeves and done already. 

so cross my fingers and toes this week, we can finally meet this gosh-darn target and i can breathe air again!!!

今天我被一個我們其中一個顧問打電話罵了一頓

雖然不是我個人的錯可是還是得擔下來道歉

這就是上班與自家企業的差別

如果今天不是我家公司我一定不會接受有人這樣態度罵我

可是因為立場不同 風險不同 就只有安撫對方的情緒為先

學校沒教的事: 如何道歉

晚上回來心情不是很好加上身體不舒服不是很想出門

但是窩在家我只會心情更不好就跟JAMES出去囉~

難過時很想打電話給他

可是忍住!!!!要忍住!!!!!要往前看!!!!

I’ve got to CALM DOWN. I need to stop wanting everything done YESTERDAY. This is Canada. Things are done really really uber super duper slowly.

NEED to CALM down.

又一個高中同學訂婚囉!!!

六月連續四個婚禮要參加

今年相信會有更多好消息

我老媽問我我這位”老小姐”會不會急

我只能說

當然很嚮往找到我可以很愛的男人

但同時我每天都過得很好

我還有好多我想做的事

能遇到同樣有遠見的人會真得很開心

單單因為周邊的人都在結婚導致我也應該開始慌張這件事

其實還沒有太大的感覺~

除了婚禮很熱鬧與感人之外

婚姻似乎也不是像中樂透

怎麼姊妹們抱怨比單身時還多?

我有時很想問 “是你自己選的ㄝ 那你抱怨啥?” 

可是通常都不會講出來….

好聚好散

這四個字對我來說是很難做到

可是完全在預料之外而做到

非常開心

也沒生氣

也沒難過

感覺很神奇!!!

I’m unscathed!!!